A different kind of Moroccan story

Submitted by anonymousamerican (United States), Nov 20, 2007 at 22:07

I met a Moroccan man on a website a few months ago and we became fast friends. We clicked from the first sentence. I don't know why, we just did. We had a lot of chemistry. We started talking and became very close. We would talk for hours, online, on mic most of the time, and the time just went by so fast. We would talk about anything and everything. He knew my moods, when I was happy, when I was sad, he knew when I was quiet that something was wrong, and he could always make me feel better. We had a wonderful and rare bond.

After a few months of talking, he asked me to marry him. The only problem, is that he is half my age. Yeah..... You would never know it, he's extremely mature in his personality and character. But you would know it by looks. And that was my main issue. We went back and forth on it for a couple of weeks, then I took some time offline. When I came back, he started talking about it again, assured me that he wasn't trying to just get a green card, although he was honest about wanting to come to the states.

He almost married someone a couple of years ago but changed his mind. He said he would sign a paper that he would have to pay me 10 million dollars if he wanted to leave the marriage after he got his green card...haha he was just trying to prove a point. I really believe that this man was being honest. I could feel him, is that understandable?

He would say that we are good together, we feel good together, we're happy when we're talking, etc. Well finally he almost had me convinced. We were talking about me possibly going to see him early next year. Then I was offline for a few days and in that time I did a lot of thinking. Thinking about the fact that he doesn't have any kids, and I've had all mine. He said it wasn't a problem for him. I started also thinking about the fact that I would always look so much older than him.

Even if we got along perfectly mentally, physically there would always be a huge difference, and I didn't know if I could live with that. Right now it wouldn't be so bad, but down the road I thought it would be a huge issue for me and maybe for him even though he argued that it wouldn't. . So I told him a couple of days ago that we need to just remain friends. We had a big discussion and he finally said that this would be our last conversation, it was better that way. So that's it. I didn't want to lose him altogether, and it breaks my heart.

He is one of the most awesome men I have ever met. I saw him online today and I so wanted to talk to him, but the other night he said please let it be this way. I know it would be too hard tor him to just be friends. So I didn't say anything. Anyway, with all the horror stories out here, I thought I would add a little sad and bittersweet one to the mix. I'm missing him a lot. I feel a void in my life. It stinks....

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