thanks all

Submitted by SL (Japan), Dec 15, 2007 at 23:37

i appreciate each and every advice from you all! :)

he's a devout muslim... well something i didnt know when we started going out.
he acted completely like a normal guy and i thought maybe he wasn't that religious. i wish he'd shown me his true colors at the very beginning, then i wouldnt have been with him. and he knew it. thats why he kept playing 'the western game' by making 'exceptions' for me.

we have talked about breaking up so many times. its like we only had a brief moment of happiness and the rest is piled up with lies and manipulation.

i wanted him to see me as who i am. i didnt want him to walk away just because i've been with other guys before. in the past i was the hopeful one and he wasnt. now, looks like its reversed; he's the hopeful one telling me we should give it one last go and i'm the one looking at the other way, thinking i can't do this anymore.

he says he cant forget about all the details of my past, but if i can become somebody who he can be proud of (pious muslim woman), then he can start seeing me differently. and he's said that hes not walking away w/o giving me one last shot.

i dunno if the last shot he's talking about is worth it. i dont believe i can change into who he wants me to be.
besides, all the verbal abuse i have received from him, i dont even know who i am.

i'm completely lost now...

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