To Marie.............

Submitted by Susan (USA) (United States), Mar 29, 2008 at 11:08

Hi Marie,

This freakin site is going to give me an ulcer. arrgggggggghhhh....My gut is in knots right about now...I'm beginning to feel like I'm standing naked in the woods and all my dirty laundry is hanging out.....

You know Marie, who the hell knows if it is the same man or not. Everybody here seems to think each others man is possibly their man. We're all afraid to put the names of our man, the city they reside in, etc on this site......but when I'm truly gut wrenching honest with myself....something is not 100% right with me and my Moroccan man.

I know all relationships have ups and downs...but it is so different when two are face to face doing this, then being on a telephone/computer/emails courting and loving one another...anyway....her goes, his initials are AG, he lives in El Jadida, his best friend is Simo and Najib...he says he is 35....here is my dirty laundry....he has one tooth that sticks out on the left side of his mouth, he is very good about hiding it, he has a goatee about 99% of the time, I think he is handsome...he says he is handsome.. :-)...he has a fiery personality, funny, and also can be a ... we tease each other saying he is the Moroccan brat "reda" and I'm the american fiery lady brat.

I've told him since the money incident that I need time to think things through before I buy my plane ticket to come to Morocco, since it will be me paying for every single thing. You know he asked me for money for the festival (music concert)...I eventually wired it, then cancelled the wire since he said he'd wait till he got back to his city...he went to the Sahara for the music concert....then again, he asked for the money and I was thinking how the heck did he pay for bus, hotel, etc. for 3 days in the Sahara..hmmmm..someone had to give him money.

anyway, he asked for money again, saying he needed it, then I wired more money...and the butthead was rude to me, he didn't call when he said he would, was acting all cocky, so I said screw it and cancelled the last wire...pissed him off to no end, guess what, my home phone, my cell phone and my work phone suddenly were ringing off the hook..but at that time I had come to my senses and told him to leave me alone, give me time to think things through....

I'm sure he is on the internet browsing ...shopping around for another vulnerable lady to help him out..unless of course one of you are here now....who knows and I'm throwing my hands in the air...I have no clue...and I'm hurt, and I'm angry, so pissed off at myself more than him...but crazily I have deep intense heartfelt feelings for him.

I really want to thank everyone for their truthful words, I'm confused and hurt. Thanks for allowing me to purge out here with people who do understand.

Susan

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