Similar experience lately like Squeaky580

Submitted by Life is Beautiful (Ireland), Apr 16, 2008 at 15:49

Hello all,

It is me again, the italian girl with the muslim boyfriend that I am 7 years with him. Lately even if he knows that my plan is to go back to Italy and he knows that my plan is to leave UK by the end of the year he knows everything but we still share life together and this is hard as it is not easy at all to become closer and closer and after you have to say the BIG GOODBYE.This is my fault I should said the BIG GOODBYE earlier enough and to not cope with all these little things that make me upset and I am losing my directions and orientations to my plans.

The last 10 days I am not well in my mind I am thinking my life and my family and my move back to my country.For the last 10 days I had not mood at all for sex even if with this person sex is stronger than anything else.....but I did not give it to him because for woman if our emotional world is not happy does not connect this part of our body especially for me.

2 days ago...he told me that he will start to sleep with other woman because we have end up to be like brother and sister. As I was really upset with his answer I did not reply to him and I turned my back and I ignore him by telling him then ENJOY but be out of my life and my flat.

3 days ago I was surfing in the internet under the FACEBOOK and I have no account and I wanted to open one as many friends from back home have invited me to add my pics and see their pics and their new babies (FACEBOOK is a kind of account that you can create your own profile and to add some pics but only you invite people that you know and you want otherwise noone has access to see your album,but still you can meet people if you want to chat and to excahnge pics and stuff like these). In General I am against all these..I have only one yahoo account and that s all. I find these risky and basically you publish your life....to all around the world at the same time and I made it inactive after one day.

When eventually I opened my account to FACEBOOK all my contacts from yahoo who are registered to FACEBOOK came out and I could choose who I want to invite and suddenly while I was scrolling the FACEBOOK I saw my man on a picture with his Swimmwear with his 2 single european friends and I open his profile and I saw his friends and 2 girls that I know and they are his friends.

I was in shock not for the FACEBOOK just it shaked my Trust again as I realise that my man is mysterious and why he never told me about this account and why he never invited or put me in as his friend. I needed to find out my self. Since 3 days ago.....sex is zero even more because...my mind is running like he might have more accounts or he might have more profile somewhere else....my trust was shaked and FACEBOOK was the reason to realise that this man hides things maybe because he wants to avoid my fights (I am not an easy person regarding relationships)I am demanding and for little things I fight and maybe I have showed to him jealousy and maybe he does not want to tell me everything about his life.

For me it was matter of trust....because my mind went straight away to sex chattings to other girls as he is obsessed with sex.It sounds maybe minimum reason to break up but for him this event with the FACE BOOK and not sex for the last 10 days again he left me. He told me that his friends open his account in order to communicate and to see their pics from their travelling to Australia.....maybe but why I am never in all these and always and always I feel this rejection since the day one....I feel excluded and rejected and all these have made me to be vulnurable and have made me to be so insecure and I grap myself to someone who never has explanation or good answers to give me.

is this Muslim thing?.I remembered my last relationship 7 years too and one time I was down and for a while we did not have sex....he never threaten me that he will sleep next day with another woman....just he talked to me and after a while everything was fine again.I do not know I am confused...and maybe....I am not giving him sex just because my trust and my principles of life have been upsidedown and i do not feel like anymore. But I have to say that if I will see him with another woman and this is the end it will affect me.

Thanks again for reading my posts.

Life is Beautiful

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