naughty and awkward

Submitted by cats&dogs (Philippines), Nov 20, 2008 at 14:26

I am a Roman Catholic girl. i met this guy over the YM three months ago. i was online looking for a job. out of nowhere, i dont know how..he sent me an IM saying, "hey do u want to work in dubai?" and the conversation starts there. He invited me to view his cam and he seems so handsome then. He told me that he will send me an application form from his bank (he's a bank manager in dubai) and i need to send it back to him as soon as possible so he can process all the papers. We keep in touch for the updates.

He started calling me, sending me emails and its been part of our routine to chat online every weekend with cam to see each other. By constant communication that we have, we feel in love. yeah, i love him so much. We start talking about me living there in Dubai as his wife, plans of working there with him, plans of having family, plans of getting married, plans of having children...all that stuff..

But things are changing. Everytime we talk on line with cam, he always ask me to get naked for him. First i refused to do that because i know its awkward. but he will get mad if i did do it so. He will start saying that I should trust him if i love him, i should do that if i love him, its not awkward if im doing if for him.. so we ended up doing naughty things on the net to satisfy his fantasies. He will ask me to do this...this way..hold this...more..like this... and so on. We are having sex online every time we chat. We are still doing it up to now.

Its been three months now, but im still here in our country. He never got a chance to get me out of here as we have planned. We are still talking online. we talked 2 days ago and he gave me a call. And here's one more thing. whenever he calls me, he will ask me to moan for him to turn him on. He will start making stories that he's alone on his room, doing this..doing that...and he will ask to moan for him..

I feel that i am too submissive because i love him so much. Yeah, i am doing all the things that he ask me to do..naughty and awkward sexy things. Imagine, this is just on the net..not yet on real life.

i dont know what to do now. i am head over heels in love with him. really. i swear. i love him so much. i want to marry him but i dont and i will not convert. i already raised that concern to him since we have plans of living together soon. (still dont know how soon is soon) but im thinking twice though.

i have this feeling that i cannot live without him. i got no problems with him aside from the issue of "sexy" thing. he's been so thoughtful and understanding.. but i dont know..im confused..

this weekend ..we will chat online again.. is this will be our last conversation? should i end this up? how? what if not?

please help me. thank you.

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