hardest step...leaving him

Submitted by isalover (United States), Jan 18, 2009 at 10:38

hi again,

I posted on here a few times about my relationship and my concerns. got some helpful advice ( hunny) and also some hurtful bashing. But I guess you need to expect that on a post.

Anyway this is not a plea for others opinions, it is just me venting and sharing, and hopefully helping others. I had been with my x-boyfriend for 11 months. Well I finally saw past the clouds of love and made a hard and heartbreaking decision. I had my boyfriend move out. you see when we met almost a year ago it was under the weirdest circumstances. I had never met or been involved with a man from another country, so the whole green card thing was new to me.

Well that is what he was looking for. his cousin jokingly asked me if i would marry his cousin for money so he could get a green card i laughed and said ya right your crazy. i explained to my Bf i would never do that and he needed to look somewhere else, but we could be friends. well i was also coming out of a bad break from my husband, the last thing i wanted was a new relationship, well over time his kindness and attention caused me to fall in love with him. always having that reason of why he talked to me in the 1st place pounding in my head (greencard) all though he knew i would never marry him he would always say i know honey i love you still.

well he was married and has 2 daughters in turkey. he said over time his love for his wife had died he has not been home to turkey in 8 yrs. but would talk to them daily on the pc. well someone told her we moved in together and she filed for divorce.

There is so much i can put in here but long story short. I kept thinking it was all the plan cause this is what they do divorce the wife in there country and than later remarry them once they are legal. well the when will you marry me questions started. I stuck to my same answer never cause i told him i will never be able to trust u was it a green card or real desire to be with me? well i gave him the choice if you need to get that green card than move out and go do what you must. pay someone or trick a another into thinking you love her. He claims to love me, but said he was tired of being stuck(illegal), so he moved out get this than tells me he still loves me and wants me, wants to hold on so he doesent lose me even asked me if i would wait for him 2 yrs 3 yrs he wasnt sure. I said can u honestly promise you will be back....HE SAID NO....i was like what the ...

anyway he moved out 2 days ago, i left town so i didnt have to watch. he was gone, well he called me and said he still loves me and that he just moved out but he is still loving me....i feel like he is wanting to keep me for sex and to keep from being lonely while he searches for the new green card girl.

when he moved out that showed me he chose the card over me. i am lost without him, but i know i will survive and i am just trying to stay strong. otherwise he would have told me he will wait and prove his love to me is real....or am i just dreaming.....,thank you....trying to stay strong....

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