reply to bewildered

Submitted by becreative (United Kingdom), May 5, 2009 at 12:01

thankyou for having the time to pop back and reply -i appreciate it - and everyone else that has helped and given me advice .wanted or not. I am thinking hard and have gone over and over so much my head is spinning. i agree with all you are saying here, and its proving very hard at the moment to let go. When he phones me late at night to say goodnite and always txt me in a morning to say hello - the fact he misses me every day -you are probably right very good at what they do, to the point of brainwashing you.

I feel sick inside if i dont hear from him now, which is very rare. I am due to go to Greece in two weeks so it will give me a break,mentally , I didnt want to go away so soon but its been booked ages, and the second week of my previous trip wasnt planned for so a bit soon to be jetting off again - i even tried to change the tickets and holiday to guess where???? egypt - but i couldnt so perhaps a good thing really .. But im changing -im not as happy as i used to be Why???? because of all the thoughts going on in my head........hes begging me to go back as soon as i can , and i cant tell him when, i have my job to consider and money -

Your situation was so much like mine, and like many im sure,i can relate to all what you went through and are still hurting because of the experience, im trying not to fall down the slippery slope as they say, im hanging on, to being in control, but im losing it. If he turned round and ended it it would be easier, but its me that has to put an end to it, which im finding hard, ive tried, ive typed emails and they are in the draft folder, one went once and i panicked..I know i cant tell him on the phone. ...so at the moment im in limbo land - wondering what the hell to do. please dont all shout at me at once. ........im having a really bad week....... thanks bewildered . flydfolly -i know you want to shake the living daylights out of me - ...

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