dear bewildered

Submitted by becreative (United Kingdom), May 28, 2009 at 14:46

i really feel for you --- i understand how deep you are hurting even now. i am back off holiday in greece and it was so uplifting to be in an environment that was laid back with charming greeks but not the hassle, it ended with a handshake and goodbye. no sweet talk no tears, no insincere words, just soo- so different. but:--egypt gets into your heart and soul, the atmosphere, then when you are least expecting it, you are smitten by not just the place itself -something....... someone seems to worm its way into your world....but why???? we should all wake up, but its hard when you are in this dream you want to stay in...... its not reality............ i am still struggling like you bewildered, you have tried to put this behind you and it is still killing you inside, because you did love the guy.

This is what is so frustrating for us , we do love these guys ....ive had a long week thinking , on a beautiful island but, it lacked the guy im in love with, in my heart he is still in there, and like you i cant block it out.. I have tried ending it i have tried with many hard words, but whatever i say he understands. He telephoned me on holiday every evening, before i boarded my flight and when it landed and when i got home. This really gets to me because he knows just how to get to me..But is this the plan or does he genuinely care.To make it all look and seem more genuine...... I know i cant get to egypt again until Dec. i was trying to get next month but i cant afford it now .. i know this will be the test - for me its too long to wait and for him he will move on to the next victim. i have to face that fact, i will be like you in love with a dream that can never be, because of the sheer expense of the travelling, the committment it takes and the difference in the cultures, religion etc...its destined for failure ...but hard to let go of ......do we let go ...do we sink.. or do we swim like hell.... I

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