help

Submitted by tracey (United Kingdom), Jun 7, 2009 at 17:00

hi.. i got married to a moroccan 3 years ago after he stole my heart.. he came to live with me and my 3 kids just after.. we have had some very good times but we have also had the rough too..he drinks and when he drinks bad then he would get nasty to me and about my kids too.. he also gambles and at times he has gambled all his wages and more.. i love this man to bits but am i a fool??

he wanted me to have his baby i wanted that too.. we lost two the 1st year but i am now 5 months pregnant.. he got his residencey in april.. but latley when he has rang his mam he says she is telling him i am no good for him and he must leave me and go back so he can look after the dads shop.. he died last year.. he gave up his job last week come home and just packed his things and went... i believe he is in morocco as his familt has deleted me from faceboook and wont talk to me... befor he left i over heard him talking to people at his works telling them bad things about me and my kids.... how can he leave me when im carrying his baby?? how can he talk bad bout me to others?? why has he done this???

i just dont understand what i have done... why did he want me to get pregnant and go through all this and jusy leave?? he was married befor and i know he didnt treat them good but he has always shown me his love and mostly his good side... is it me??? have i done something?? i just dont know what to do any more

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