love...love

Submitted by Lotte (Czech Republic), Aug 4, 2009 at 16:28

At first I have to say that finding this internet site probably helped me to make the biggest mistake of my life. Yes Im one of this girls who met a 'nice' egyptian man during the holiday over there. Yes, I heard before how careful I have to be there and some scary stories but I was thinking it will never happen to me....

It seemed to be so normal love story.. 2 people found each other.. all this nice phone calls, sms. I mean which woman wouldn't be facinated from all this stuff. And I even couldnt find any warning signs- I mean we were the same age, young, he told me all about his nice family (I quess I will never find out what was true and what not), he never asked money or mentioned something about moving to Europe. He was this one who was telling me all the time that I should move to Egypt.

So nothing bad so far... then I started asking questions about the future. I mean when I give up all my life here in Europe to move to Egypt then at least I should know who is this person actually. All together I didnt know about him more than only all this sweet words. We have different religions, we grow up in completely different environment and even when Im very open minded person I quess about this kind of topics you should talk about before you take this step.

I never got a clear answer- he just ignored my question or just started to make fun about this questions or I got an answer what was comletely useless. Then he just started to disappear-there were days, even a week when I didnt hear anything from him ( at the beginning we were writing every day). When I asked what is going on then I got only answer that he is busy and he has so much work.. Mhmmm I mean what the hell work is it where you even dont have time to send a short message 'how are you' or whatever ...24/7 marathon runner?

I started to ask more and more questions and I really wished I would have done it before. Because whatever I asked I realized that he doesnt know anything about me and I dont know him. I mean when you are really in love with somebody are you not trying to find out more about your loved one? He even didnt seemed to be very interested about it. He just wanted to have me .. and then?

Our story is not finished yet. I still wait for the final answer from him. He keeps telling me that he cant live without me but I cant believe not a word any more. I realize every day more and more that he is just playing a game. I wish he could be at least at the end honest and tell me the true so that I could finish it for me and move on with my life but I quess I will never get it from him. It hurts a lot because I really loved him and I still have feelings for him. I mean what kind of monsters are they when they can play with feelings just like this? Just rip a heart open and then trop it somewhere in the desert without looking back...

I lost trust in love and I lost piece of my heart but I will move on and live and love and be loved again. I quess for him will be the punishment that he will never experience the real, pure love with all the beautiful feelings. He will always be a lost lonely soul

I wish you all to stay strong and dont let this guys break your soul

Sorry for my english

L.

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