How do you control the way you feel?

Submitted by jasmine (France), Sep 29, 2009 at 10:01

To All!

I know what you mean, and i know what i said, but now i have second thoughts on my ex maroccan boyfriend... I actually became friends with him on facebook as somebody else. He started talking to me thnking i was another girl online. He talked about his situation how hes a clandestan and how everything backfired and how he lost his ex girlfriend being me! He told me everything about our lives together and how i let him down when he became a clandestan.. but he didn't lie about anything and said that he could never marry someone just to have papers.. He also said how i was jealous when he talked to another girl and even some incidents that had happened nearly every single detail..and that basically he couldn't stand us argueing all the time. He also said that he just wants me to be happy, and then he said , i'll let you in on a secret I really did love her and wanted to marry her but her friends told her it was just to have the papers. He said that i found out that i risked a heavy fine and 5 yrs of prsion if caught helping a clandestin, so that also pushed him away. I asked him if he cheated and he said no but she thought that i did.. i had said early in the converstion that i had a boyfriend since 2yrs so that he would spill the beans..he even said how we had met etc..

So maybe i was always over exaggerating and jealous for nothing i don't know what to think?

last night he asked me how i was on the msn and hoped that i was ok and in my job etc.. I said yes everythings fine and you how are things with you? etc and he said i just wanted to know how you are! good night ! ciao.. He has done that a couple of times just wants to know how i am and thats it but i keep it short too just fine thanks with no detail of my life even though i would like to chat more but i haven't so far! He also said he might be going back to his country in december if his last chance doesn't work, hes waiting for a certain paper from the town hall which he will be able to work if he gets it..

So feeling very guilty at the moment and wish that i wasn't jealous at the time,and more understanding etc ... its weird but i do still love him..

Whats the next step ,? AND YOUR POINT OF VIEW,?

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