My story seems very similar to yours

Submitted by innocence (France), Nov 6, 2009 at 05:02

Cold feet hi :-) My story seems very similar to yours. As I said before, I was dating an Egyptian for 2 years online & I was also ready to book a ticket to Egypt & go to meet him. We started as very closed friends first & then "love" came. That time I was separated but not divorced. I had problems & I was feeling alone. My feet was cold too every time I was thinking to go to meet him. I also have been suffering from panic attacks the last 3 years which make me to end up in the emergency room very often. I also can not travel or being in a very crowded environment alone. Besides, I suffer from claustrophobia too. That Egyptian man was extremely lovely & always there for me. When any of my panic attacks happened during the night, he used to keep his camera on & his mobile with him in his bed.

Whenever I was in tears he was always there to calm me down. He even used to stay connected to me through the camera all day long during my bad days. He had his camera on in his office & then in his home just for me to feel better & make me happy when I was feeling down. Nobody could dare to tell me that the guy was not for real. He also wanted to marry me from the fourth month. Yes, It did seem to me weird to propose me so early but he had explained me that in Egypt is something normal because people can not really date as we do. I respected that. To make the story short, after two years I found out that those days who used to be always there for me , unfortunately he was there for other women too. How did he manage to do that? God knows! I could see him on the camera talking to me, but apparently he was typing "sweet words " to others on line at the same time. I also could see his papers from work next to his pc & he was showing me what he was doing on his computer. All these through the camera! In 2008 on my birthday he had sent me a gift & I was so happy! I recently found out that, those days around my birthday he had met another woman on online. I am illustrator & I belong to an online community of illustrators so as he is also a graphic designer, I had opened an account for him in the same community. He met that woman there!!!! It was the days of my birthday that he was online with me through his camera & sending flirtatious messages to her at the same time under my "innocent" nose!

Now It is all over. I have moved on with my life, I am happy, I am back with my "real" husband :-) However, it still hurts that betrayal. I felt extremely deceived since I became aware of the toxicity & manipulation was occurring behind me. The lies and deceit shot a hole through my soul. I wished I had found this site two years ago. I would have made better decisions concerning that Egyptian man. I would have not been so naive and waste my time. Mostly, I would have read the stories, experiences and opinions of the posters here. I know that "love" makes us blind some times and I might be one too but still , the bell can be rang better in someone's head by the fifty posters here who see the red flags than the one or two who do not see them!

Take Care cold feet! xxxx

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