I know how your pain feels...

Submitted by aurelie (United States), Sep 11, 2011 at 12:53

I've been or I was dating a guy from Morocco for 14 months, sometimes he was passive agressive but I guess I love him so much that I did not care, This Ramadan I was waiting patiently for him to come back home (we were living together) he spend that month at his guy-friends house... 3 days after ramdan is over he texted me saying he is not coming home anymore and he is moving into the guys house (before he had told me he hated the place living with them ect) he moved with me bcs he said he had no place to go and I hosted him we started sharing rent, ect everything was nice.... I stopped going out talking to my friends the ones I knew were going to invite me to Bars or clubs etc I wouldnt even go out to have dinner with friends because I knew he was going to give me a hard time and since he was at home with me all the time then I didnt care, we had a hard time.. he had a heart problem and was in ER for one week, I was living in a different state and when he told me he was in emergency room i rushed myself 4 hrs travel to get to where he was risked my job lost money one week i stayed in the hospital sitting and sleeping in a chair next to him holding his hand, looking at his face, just being there and panicking what if something bad happen? what if he die? the drs. didnt know what the problem was I ve never been this scare in my life...

he has US papers so he wasnt wth me for papers, but his sweet talk.... we would dance w/o music, he would kiss me and make me feel I was flying, I remember how he would play music in low volume and kiss me slowly he would wake up in the morning early before going to work and sit next to me and look at me for minutes until i woke up and saw him and smiled then he would tell me how pretty i was how lucky he was how in morocco he never thought of being with somebody like me so beautiful so nice so amazing how jealous his friends would be if they saw him with me... now he changed.. he wasnt kissing me anymore no hugging all night i would cry and beg him to tell me what whats going on he would tell me to go away leave him alone, its been almost 2 weeks since he left me and i still cant get over it, i will move out of state, i dont know what happen we were perfectly fine, now he acts like if we have never been together he is going out with his guy friend all the time he is hanging out with his best friend (which is a selfish jerk and uses couchsurfing.org to "help" people but so he can find sex and girls.. naive girls that are traveling they are young and stupid and they party then he has sex with them) i know probably my sweet lovely boyfriend was influenced by all that and maybe he didnt love me anymore but that change I believe is part of the way they are, there should be a rule or a fine or something that prohibits americans or non muslim non arabs from dating or ARABS MUSLIM FROM DATING AMERICANs because all they do is destroy your heart.. I am moving out of state is the only way i can deal with this I cant deal with seeing him loving him and just see how he doesnt care at all and he is going to all this places and BBQ with his friends and meeting girls like he doesnt care at all what we had.. all the plans all the travels we had plan together mean nothing for him at all.. i feel lost and i wish i could just open up my chest take my heart out and throw it to the ocean so i dont suffer anymore. I have become depresive i cant eat i cant sleep i cant work i cannot do anything his love was so much to me he is the greatest guy i have ever had and hate myself for trusting him and fooling or letting myself be fooled by suck guy.. I hate islam tnx to him and I hate moroccans tnx to him STAY AWAY FROM THEM THEY ARE ALL THE SAME USERS AND PLAYERS THAT WILL BREAK YOUR HEART.

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