Hello, Chelsea!

Submitted by Lana(USA) (United States), Apr 1, 2020 at 01:50

I am happy to hear(read )from you too and to know that you are still here, with this forum !!!!

Glad to know that you are safe too!!!!

(I am in a medical field, so it is tough those days!)

I try to not to look back anymore,as I am far past all of it.... except when some words or news trigger my memory again...

In my "days of despair"- I used to write notes to myself, being by myself,to avoid ruminating the past in my head.It kept me sane.

Now-looking back, without emotions...I understand that I was guilty of trying to see good things in someone who never had them in him on a first place. I was trying to find excuses for his mishaps... Being raised by, and among good-hearted, caring and kind people, my intelligence refused to believe that someone, who was dear to me, and pretended to have feelings for me, could be such evil.
He became fading,bleak streak on the back of my memory, if at all...I was in denial...My fault was being naïve, but not anymore.

I truly hope, that reading multiple stories here, on this forum, it will prevent someone to be trapped in emotions and illusions ,while making life-changing decisions, when choosing to be in a "relationsh@T-for-no-good ending".(pardon my "French")

Stay healthy and safe!
Hugs!

Lana

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